Tough days

I had a mixed day yesterday. On one hand, Mr. J and I had friends over and played Rock Band and had a knee slapping good time. On the other, it was pointed out to me that my low progesterone level is indicative of not having ovulated, NOT actually having low progesterone. Well, I still could have low progesterone, the point is, I don't know. That crushed me, I was so optimistic that we had finally found something to fix, and I really felt like I was doing something productive by taking the progesterone, but now? Who knows? I want to stay positive, but sometimes I feel like I'm on the verge of giving up completley. I don't want to keep getting pregnant only to have more miscarriages.

Well, I can't find a way to spin that particular subject in a positive light right now, so I'm just going to put it on the backburner. I'm sure I'll eventually have a eureka moment about this and start feeling better, but for now I don't even want to think about it.

On a positive note, I feel really good in the aspects of my life that don't involve my body. I have just started the program at Flylady.com, and I am loving it. For those of you who don't know, my nickname as a child was Missy mess pot, and I never grew out of it. Flylady.com gives me a program to get the CHAOS (Can't have anyone over syndrome) out of my life. I really love it, because even though I should know better, I thought I was the only one out there who liked having a clean house...but didn't. So far so good in that aspect, and it is so much less stressful to come home to a clean(er..still a work in progress) house.

Also, we have decided to transition our outdoor dog, Ruby, into an indoor one. She spent most of her time outside or on the patio, and she was the only pet in our house who wasn't really a member of the family. The reason for this is that she was too "hyper" (read: underexcercised). Finally, we couldn't stand how sad she looked all the time, especially knowing that it was our fault. We gave her a nice bath, dried her off, and let her in, for good. It's amazing now, how happy she is, and how great it is to have both of our doggies inside with us. We had one, maybe two days of hyperness, and non-stop playing between Ruby and Copper (our other dog), but now things have become normal. I imagine that in a few weeks I won't even be able to imagine her as anything but a house dog.

Now that my house is starting to be a bit cleaner, I've been able to enjoy some more cooking and baking. This is the Stuffed Pizza Rolls recipe from ourbestbites.com. It was yummy. (http://www.ourbestbites.com/2009/06/stuffed-pizza-rolls.html)

Before (We only had turkey bacon for these. I made them again last night
with turkey bacon, pepperoni and ham. Yum!)

After (With Pizza Sauce and Ranch Pizza Sauce for dipping)

And with my pretty, decorated for Christmas, stove